thinking

so my boyfriend started a full time job, which is good news. I’m back to remembering what to do without him now and that’s more of a trial. I’ve woken up this morning with two songs floating around in my head, grabbing at threads to try and form themselves. I watched a video about activism, and how activists can be too hard on themselves. I want to write and play uke and crochet and calligraph today. I must inspire positivity. 

i saw my friend matt the other day.

he was there by chance for 20 minutes or so and then he went away again.

i am so sick of horrible toxic people.

tell her that I miss our little talks.

If you are going to take a job they wanted me for

And then you are going to take a SECOND job which I rightfully deserved

And I am going to sit there working my ass off every day for an event you are getting paid to look at ONE DAY A FORTNIGHT

I WILL NOT DO YOUR FUCKING JOB FOR YOU

FOR FREE

Especially when your first point of contact with me is an email saying hi everybody, I’m the new Etti

When Etti was my FRIEND who I have FUCKING LOST.

When she left you a list of tasks

I will not let you DELEGATE THEM TO ME

I will not do MORE THAN I AM FUCKING DOING

Especially not for YOU.

its really hard to not let my ego creep up

companies would very much like to hire me 

groups want me to be their leader

organisations in trouble want me to come in and facilitate their discussions to make it better

people talk about hiring me to come sort things out for money when i’m not around

a group that’s been trying to get me to volunteer with them for ages has finally almost secured me delivering training for them

phoebe will deliver awesome to you in packages now.

SO QUICKLY YOUR TWENTY-FIRST YEAR’S GONE BY
AND TODAY YOU’RE TWENTY-TWO;
“TEMPUS FUGIT” - TIME DOES FLY
WE WISH THE VERY BEST FOR YOU.

IT’S GOOD TO HEAR IN BATH YOU STAY,
DOING THE THINGS YOU LIKE TO DO,
MIXING, AS NORMAL, WORK AND PLAY,
YOU’VE GOT THE BRAINS AND TALENTS TOO.

IN WISHING YOU “MANY HAPPY RETURNS”,
HERE’S A QUOTE FROM ROBERT BURNS.
IT’S IN HIS BIRTHDAY BOOK
I FOUND IT WHEN I TOOK A LOOK.

“Above the world on wings of Love you rise…”

—My great uncle Angus and aunt Mary =]

escaped acute lung ward 2, and enjoying a beck’s vier